I had underestimated the impact of those words. I know that MILLIONS of women have shared this experience, but this was 'my' baby... laboring with 'my' granddaughter. It didn't take long to realize that fear was 'mine' as well. Details of risk disclosed at the reading of the consent form did nothing to assuage my concerns.
The shock has begun to wear off. I am ashamed at my lack of faith and the predominance of FEAR...yet greatly comforted by the words of Romans 8:1 - "There is therefore now NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." He KNOWS I am weak. He carries me. How then, do I fall into the same pattern of fear and unbelief when I know better? Today's reading from "Streams in the Desert" was a gentle, stern reminder!
"Never turn God's FACTS into hopes or prayers,
but simply use them as realities!"
Open the eyes of my heart, Lord!
I know Who stands behind
The God of Angel Armies
Is always by my side!"
I call to mind an evening in April. Henry and I were in South Ronaldsay, having dinner at the Skerries Bistro. Toward the end of our meal, a gentleman sitting two tables over stood up, walked over and introduced himself. His name was Jarod, and he simply said he 'felt prompted' to make our acquaintance. He happened to be the pastor of "Bridge of Don" Baptist Church in Aberdeen, and was visiting Orkney for the weekend. We enjoyed our chat, invited him to church, and have kept in touch...
Fast forward to last Tuesday, July 28. I took the first commercial flight available to Aberdeen after Kate and Richard had been airlifted. My shock was magnified by the fact that I had never been in Aberdeen. I was feeling helpless and completely disoriented. I hailed a taxi and asked him to take me to the Maternity Ward at Royal Aberdeen Infirmary. All was a blur, until something caught my attention at a stoplight.
On the left was a sign reading:
In April, when we met Jarod, Richard and Kate had no idea they would be moving to Orkney, but the Lord knew. He knew their tiny baby would need special care. He is 'El Roi'...the God who sees! In His sovereign goodness, He arranged for us to dine at the Skerries Bistro, and prompted pastor Jarod Meenan to introduce himself! Jarod has come to the rescue, praying with our little family in Aberdeen, visiting, delivering packages for us. We are ever grateful to him, and to the God of Angel Armies!
You hold the whole world in Your hand
I'm holding on to Your promises
You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful!